Lost Identity

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I am behind on Posts!  One impact a day is killing me - its not as easy as you think.
Probably the biggest impact on my life that is not a person, place or situation is MUSIC. Music in all forms - vocal and instrumental, but most of all the lyrics. Music can completely change your mood from good to bad (a memory of a time or place that was less than optimal in your life, like at the time of a breakup) or it can totally energize you (like a playlist for exercise), or it can bring back good memories like a wedding, a childhood memory tied to a song. Music can provide background emphasis to something you are doing like the arts, or sleeping, or partying, or just riding in the car. I like all kinds of music - probably because I grew up singing in choirs - and we always sang a wide range of songs. I enjoy classical music - especially when I am doing something that requires my attention doing it - like painting or welding or doing anything artistic. I love Jazz - it's improvisations are inspiring. Recently I've gotten into Bluegrass since I've taken up Mandolin. In college I was into 70s and folk music. Those of you that know me know that I love classic rock and roll, and 80s funk, new wave, alternative music. It's all good. Probably the only music I cannot take is death metal. But, even in that, there are people that are moved by it. It's all in your preferences, and perspective.  
In the next 11 months I will highlight many a song, or lyrics that have completely impacted my life. Some were written by others, some might be written by me - but all bring impact to my life in one way or another. The first being this one. It was the first song I've ever written. It is about someone I dated in college who broke my heart. I think many of you know who this was. It was how I came out of what was and has always been the deepest, darkest place that I've ever been.

 LOST IDENTITY 
Left me a fool, lost identity
Desperate search for myself again
Mend broken relationships with friends
All the emptiness

 <Chorus>
Trust disappears, Darkness comes to light
Love becomes fear, hope it lifts the plight
Buckets of tears, make it though the night
Healing took years, peace within my sight
Learn to believe in yourself

Precious jewel, forever mine to keep
Weed out the weak ones with your power
Finding strenghth within my darkest hour
Swallow wipe the tears
<Chorus>


Alone with you, but not together
Rational thought clouded by control
Self respect too strong for the hold
Ah, disappointment
<Chorus>

Love as a tool, builds forgiveness
Accepting others as they are
Learning to disguise all the scarsIt is not your fault

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